weekend

I didnt end up doing much at all this weekend, i missed the boys a lot, i just went for walks, watched dvds and had dinner with my sisters.
I think maybe Cody starts kinder next week but i still havent got any info, they arent giving me a lot of time here ugh.
I just found out the guy i was with before Ryan has just done for murder :O and there is no doubt he did it, he killed the guy his girlfriend was cheating on him with, eek how scary what a psycho i knew he was messed up but damn,after i was with ryan he was trying to ruin things for us and he tried to get back with me, hes already been in jail for other things (after i was with him) actually his whole family is psycho, his brother also thought he loved me and wanted to get with me, he asked me to get with him while i was like 6 months pregnant with another mans baby. I DONT THINK SO, it doesnt go like that for me lol but you gotta hate how hot they are, seriously H O T, they are opposites of each other,one dark and one fair and sexy as can be (if you ignore the messed up psycho part) and oh my god did they have gorgeous eyes and hot bods. ok i have got to stop saying hot lmao.
it is going to be hot here today lol (about 30/86 degrees) but not overboard hot

gone

Ryan picked the boys up really late last nite so i have some time to myself and so far i have done nothing but laze around lol, its 4pm and im still in my pjs, might invite some peeps around tonite for a drink or if i dont im gonna have a dvd night with a couple of bourbons.
My dad seems to be feeling good but now Ryans dad is in hospital, i think they are competeing against each other lol, Ryans dad has a thing called Barres syndrome which im gonna have to look up cos i know nothing about it but apparently it ranges in syptoms and serverity, Ryans dad has an extreme case of it and things are looking pretty bad for him but theres still a chance he will get passed it.I hope so anyway.

Well im gonna go back to lazing around now wahoooo.

arghhh

Well its official this week sucks!
My dad had a stroke last nite and was unconcious for an hour and a half, it takes an ambulance 45 mins to get to where he lives and im still wondering why the hell they didnt send the chopper to get him which is what is meant to happen, 10 minutes before the ambulance gets to the hospital he comes to and complains he is hungry lol, he wanted kfc.
Anyway he seems to be ok and will be having further testing.

I feel that i am getting to a breaking point at the moment and i need a break so i rang ryan again and asked him to keep Cody for the rest of the week after this weekend (not Zane just Cody) i just need a proper break to get myself back to normal, Ryans response was a flat out "no i cant do that im busy" i asked him why not and he said that hes gonna look for work this week, funny that he decided hes gonna look this week when he has been out of work for months and hasnt bothered to look b4 now, we both know hes talking shit and hes just gonna hang out with his mates smoking and drinking and whateva else, im feeling pretty damn evil towards him right now, if he thinks hes gonna get away with having the kids the odd time here and there well the shit will hit the fan lmao.
Codys not really being any harder then ususal and despite him being a very energetic kid hes not really a naughty kid in fact hes a pretty damn good kid i think but he just takes a lot out of you and truthfully i think its more whats going on in my head then how hes acting, I JUST NEED A BREAK.

ugh

Had a crappy morning today!
Zane had me up from 5am for the second morning in a row and cos i wasnt expecting it i went to bed at 12am so for 2 days i have had 9 hours which i guess isnt to bad but when your used to more it really sucks, Zane was being sooky all morning and Cody decided that today was the day to have a melt down as well so with not much sleep my patience and tolerance was almost non existent lol
sooo i rang Ryan and pretty much said "where the hell have you been? dont you think its time to do your duty and take the kids for a weekend? i need a fucking break"!!!!
so he says he will pick them up friday nite (which with today being tuesday seems a long long time away) and then he will drop them back around lunch time sunday
wahooo for me!!!!
I think maybe Zane is teething or at least starting too cos normally despite being very energetic he is a easy babe to be around he is normally so relaxed and compared to Cody is no real effort at all , ok to me he is such a joy im actually clucky for another babe
shoot me lmao
Zane is normally one of those babes who radiates joy and happiness and makes me smile no matter how tired i am or cranky (although once again that is normally hehe)

well enough whining the afternoon has arrived and things are pretty much back to normal so alls good now.

Zanes stats at 8 months: he is a bit over 10 kilos/22 pounds
he is 70 cms/28 inches
so this kid is pretty damn big lol he is so chunky, i call him my chubba bubba/chunky monkey/budda belly lol but you have to love all the rolls he has.
He is doing fantastic on his milestones, he took a while to start but now hes starting to speed ahead.
He loves anything that is edible and some things that are not! hehe

Anyway i am hanging for the new shows that are starting sometime next month, they have all been on in America for ages and im sick of hearing about them and not being able to watch them, waiting for '4400' really badly waiting for 'Lost' and'Desperate housewifes' a couple of other shows sound good but theres only so many i can be addicted to lol i am menat to look after my kids and house at some point, i guess its not a good idea to put them in a closet with a bowl of water and some bread crusts all the time lmao.
I want to loose some weight we will see if that happens 'sighs'
hmm while im at it i want to find some money 'sighs again'
lol

buh bye

Well i just picked up Cody from creche so buh bye sanity lol, they had a going away party for him, cake and all, it was so sweet but im sure that all the other parents wont think its sweet when they have hyper kids on their hands all nite hehehe.

Last day

So today is Codys last day of creche, i feel sad for him because i know that he really loves that creche and hes going to miss it and i feel sad for me because im not going to have a days break anymore :(, Cody can be quite a handful he is so damn full of energy so when Monday comes i like "ahhhhhhh, relax time' just having Zane seems like a holiday for me but we will cope like always (hmmm thinks i might need a bourbon here and there) cody will be going to kinder but that is pretty much just going to be a pain in the ass for me (although im sure he will love it) but by the time i drop him off and do whatever Zane needs me to do it will pretty much be time to pick cody back up (i think he will only be there for 3 hours 3 days a week) but cody going to kinder will save me $1240 for this year.
Ryan took the kids for a visit last weekend but wouldnt you know it i was sick all weekend arghhh, he has only ever had the kids 4 times in 8 months so i was long overdue for a break, trust me to be sick.

im going to be trying to save money (lmao we will see if i can) because my sister is moving to Canada and im hoping to be able to visit her there as well as hit USA, i will take the boys of course but that means i will have to pay full price for 2 tickets cos cody needs a ticket as well (Zane wont, thank god).

Zane updates: He is crawling, it is a weird half commando half normal crawl but he gets around quick enough lol.
He is still toothless which im happy about,theres nothing worse then a baby with a new found tooth testing it out on you.
He climbed onto his bouncer yesterday which i didnt get to see cos Kristy minded him for about 3 hours while tina and i took cody to see 'the incredables' (hmm sp?)
um he sat himself up the other day the talented babe!
hes shaking his head no (lol he loves this one)

well that will do for now.

New Blog

well this is my first post in my new blog that is all about my boys and my experiences being their mother.
I wish i had started this earlier but oh well life goes on lol i guess i might have to do a catch up now and in later posts.

My name is Nikki and im 25yrs from Australia and im a single mum.
I have 2 boys,
Cody Isaiah who is 4 and was born in november 2000.
Zane Riley who is 8 months and was born in May 2004.

They both have the same daddy whos name is Ryan and this man/boy drives me nuts! he obviously does not live with us , that will do for him in this post im sure he will reappear in many more posts for me to whine about lol.

I think that will do for a quick intro, i will post more next time.