arghhh

Well its official this week sucks!
My dad had a stroke last nite and was unconcious for an hour and a half, it takes an ambulance 45 mins to get to where he lives and im still wondering why the hell they didnt send the chopper to get him which is what is meant to happen, 10 minutes before the ambulance gets to the hospital he comes to and complains he is hungry lol, he wanted kfc.
Anyway he seems to be ok and will be having further testing.

I feel that i am getting to a breaking point at the moment and i need a break so i rang ryan again and asked him to keep Cody for the rest of the week after this weekend (not Zane just Cody) i just need a proper break to get myself back to normal, Ryans response was a flat out "no i cant do that im busy" i asked him why not and he said that hes gonna look for work this week, funny that he decided hes gonna look this week when he has been out of work for months and hasnt bothered to look b4 now, we both know hes talking shit and hes just gonna hang out with his mates smoking and drinking and whateva else, im feeling pretty damn evil towards him right now, if he thinks hes gonna get away with having the kids the odd time here and there well the shit will hit the fan lmao.
Codys not really being any harder then ususal and despite him being a very energetic kid hes not really a naughty kid in fact hes a pretty damn good kid i think but he just takes a lot out of you and truthfully i think its more whats going on in my head then how hes acting, I JUST NEED A BREAK.